[Read Book] ☲ Again Again ♠ Maibaum-ries.de

E you have got to stop doing this to me I only have the one heart You can only fill it to the brim and then break it so many times before I drop dead The concept of the multiverse is a very, very hard one to nail in fiction Please see my review of Blake Crouch s enormously awful attempt in Dark Matter foron how easy it is to screw this up It turns out simplicity and truth are the key Adelaide is a teenage girl about to start her senior year at a pretty prestigious private school t E you have got to stop doing this to me I only have the one heart You can only fill it to the brim and then break it so many times before I drop dead The concept of the multiverse is a very, very hard one to nail in fiction Please see my review of Blake Crouch s enormously awful attempt in Dark Matter foron how easy it is to screw this up It turns out simplicity and truth are the key Adelaide is a teenage girl about to start her senior year at a pretty prestigious private school that she attends because her dad is the new English literature teacher there Well, she ll be starting her senior year if she doesn t flunk out As the book, and her summer, begin she s got one chance left to create a set model for her theater design class in order to pass or she ll be looking for a new school come fall To add insult to injury her boyfriend has just broken up with her and later dayed it out to Peurto Rico Then there s the matter of her brother who is battling an incredibly serious illness Adelaide has a lot on her plate in other words and any number of things could happen to disrupt the tenuous, taught tight rope she s currently walking on.What better subject then a teenage girl to explore the endless possibilities of the multi verse with Its that time in your life when all you do is consider the possibilities, what will happen if you do or don t talk to that boy, finish that project, say what you really mean when your mom asks how you are Everything that happens to you is the most heart breaking, monumental, earth shattering, life changing thing that has ever happened in the whole history of the universe E Lockhart is also the perfect author to take on this kind of story She is an absolute master of what I m coming to think of as a touch of strange Her stories are incredibly grounded, her characters are very real people But she manages to infuse her world s with just a bit of magic, enough to make it seem like it could be real She takes Adelaides moments of indecision or tragedy or romantic hope and branches them out to give the reader multiple stories that somehow blend seamless together into one larger one This isn t some hamhanded soap opera where you re constantly re reading the same scenes over and over again Itslike watching the waves come in while you sit on the beach This wave comes up high enough to wipe away your sand castle, this one doesn t, this one comes all the way up and soaks your towel Adelaide texts with a boy she likes and we see three quick versions of the conversation, each one totally believable and likely She tries to show her project to her teacher, three different teachers respond to it in three different, totally viable ways There s no transition between moments but it never feels stilted or stumbly You start to realize how even the smallest of changes completing reframes the story but its hard to pinpoint exactly what happens to make things turn out differently becomes Adelaide herself stays fundamentally the same She comes to certain realizations at different times but grows in the same organic, believable way In some versions of her story she s a bitsympathetic,likable In some she s clingy and insecure and harder to like I wish books like this had been around when I was a green girl with so many feelings and hopes and needs and angry neediness This is a total treasure, as I m beginning to realize all E Lockhart s books are Instagram Twitter FacebookPinterestDNF p.40I have a new policy where if a book doesn t grab me within the first 30 40 pages, I no longer finish the book unless I absolutely have to I feel like if a book fails to grab you from the beginning, or at least make you think it will, that is a shortcoming great enough that it warrants a review AGAIN AGAIN was a book I was excited about ever since I first heard about it because I ve been a fan of Lockhart since high school do Instagram Twitter FacebookPinterestDNF p.40I have a new policy where if a book doesn t grab me within the first 30 40 pages, I no longer finish the book unless I absolutely have to I feel like if a book fails to grab you from the beginning, or at least make you think it will, that is a shortcoming great enough that it warrants a review AGAIN AGAIN was a book I was excited about ever since I first heard about it because I ve been a fan of Lockhart since high school don t ask how long ago that was with her Ruby Oliver series, which was much edgier than a lot of the offerings that were being promoted to me and my fellow kiddos at the time.With books like WE WERE LIARS and GENUINE FRAUD, she seemed to get edgier, and trying to capitalize on the growing trend of Gillian Flynn esque mysteries among the 13 18 set A lot of my friends didn t like WE WERE LIARS, but I actually really enjoyed it farthan Ruby Oliver, even I love unreliable narrators and I liked the fact that there were no easy answers or flawless characters in the book.AGAIN AGAIN isn t like Lockhart s earlier or later stuff, so if I am to give kudos for one thing, it s that this is an author who constantly seems to be evolving and trying new things She doesn t stagnate Which is a check when it comes to creative progress, but kind of hard for us readers, who will never really be 100% certain whether one of her books will be for us they re all so different.The premise is that there are two timelines in this book, and I guess we get to see how the heroine, Adelaide, makes different decisions that change the progress of each world It s not science fiction so much as a speculative young adult work with some mild supernatural events fueling the plot, kind of like how BEFORE I FALL did the same thing with life after death only this heroine isn t dead I thought the premise was interesting, but I couldn t easily tell the difference between the two timelines which made reading confusing,I was also really not a fan of the writing style This had a pretentious, forcibly artistic Maggie Stiefvater vibe to it that I really did not like at all The heroine likes poetry and some parts are in verse and it just feels way too affected and pretentious, and I did not enjoy it at all Some might, particularly if you enjoy Maggie Stiefvater, but I hate that author s work and steer clear of it at all costs, so seeing one of my faves start writing in that kind of style felt like a betrayal.Your mileage may vary, of course But I know what I like and don t like in fiction, and it seemed pointless to force myself through this book as soon as it became clear that it wouldn t be something I enjoyed I think if you enjoyed her newer books because of their edge, you should avoid this one, because it has none It feels like a YA that is being targeted at a much younger audience Thanks to the publisher for sending me a copy in exchange for an honest review 1 to 1.5 stars [Read Book] ⚖ Again Again ♍ In This Novel Full Of Surprises From The New York Times Bestselling Author Of We Were Liars And Genuine Fraud, E Lockhart Ups The Ante With An Inventive And Romantic Story About Human Connection, Forgiveness, Self Discovery, And PossibilityIf You Could Live Your Life Again, What Would You Do Differently After A Near Fatal Family Catastrophe And An Unexpected Romantic Upheaval, Adelaide Buchwald Finds Herself Catapulted Into A Summer Of Wild Possibility, During Which She Will Fall In And Out Of Love A Thousand Times While Finally Confronting The Secrets She Keeps, Her Ideas About Love, And The Weird Grandiosity Of The Human MindA Raw, Funny Story That Will Surprise You Over And Over, Again Again Gives Us An Indelible Heroine Grappling With The Terrible And Wonderful Problem Of Loving Other People And this other guy, he makes you happy It s not his job to make me happy, she told himBuilding a book around a gimmick takes some courage If it doesn t resonate with the reader, the book may end up forever discarded, spending its life in a sad dusty corner But if it works, then your bold approach has paid off and the book can be smugly proud of its shiny fancy self.I ll start with the gimmick that almost triggered a migraine.For no discernible reasonthe narrationbreaks into a verseatAnd this other guy, he makes you happy It s not his job to make me happy, she told himBuilding a book around a gimmick takes some courage If it doesn t resonate with the reader, the book may end up forever discarded, spending its life in a sad dusty corner But if it works, then your bold approach has paid off and the book can be smugly proud of its shiny fancy self.I ll start with the gimmick that almost triggered a migraine.For no discernible reasonthe narrationbreaks into a verseat least once per page or so it seems,out of the blue.And it getsannoying.And then the narration resumes as though there has not been any interruption.I m not sure what all this random switching back and forth is supposed to achieve besides a headache Maybe it s supposed to be artsy or evoke the memory of a poem Jack once wrote for Adelaide or remind nostalgically of teenage poetry writing days I have no clue, but what I do have is mild annoyance Another gimmick is the entire structure of the book The titular Again Again , which does exactly what it says on the tin Yes, it has a purpose for that Part IV of the book to have any emotional impact But in the meantime it does take a while to adjust to itThat summer she would fall in and out of lovethan once,in different waysin different possible worldsThe idea, brought up at a random party full of aspiring philosophers, is that of multiverses whereThere s got to be another possible world for every way that our world might have been but isn t And so from the moment of Adelaide meeting Jack on the first day of that eventful summer we see the events play out in small snippets, every situation shown in a few possible permutations showing us what could have been To keep it simple, each of these possible versions is in a slightly different font, and our main story of what actually happened in the universe that we follow is therefore easy to follow but with the added benefit of knowing bits and pieces that played out in the other universes in this multiverse, knowing things that the main Adelaide does not yet know or see And all those angles and permutations and insights from these parallel ish universes flesh out otherwise unremarkable story of a summer in a young girl s life, her heartbreaks and hopes and a journey to self realizationAlthough also at times they make me wonder why in the world we follow this particular universe out of all the other ones, and why I am supposed to careview spoiler And then we have that Part IV which can be interpreted as a long awaited catharsis of maturation or a cheap trick to rewrite the whole messy story in a good way hide spoiler Adelaide Buchwald is seventeen, and secretly unhappy On the surface she holds it together a happy, talky and sparkly girl with a perfect boyfriend, enrolled in a fancy boarding prep school where her father teaches a school that offers fancy pants classes such as Greek and Set Design and a class in making puppets no, really and all such dream stuffAlabaster Preparatory Academy is a boarding school It is the sort of place that offers classes like Eastern Religions, Theories of Popular Culture, and Microeconomic Theory Students play lacrosse and row crew They live in quaint residence halls that smell of wood and have no elevators There is a chapel with large stained glass windows Most of the buildings are gray stone There are woods on one side of the campus, and there s a small town on the otherBut her shiny sparkly pretend happiness is just a plaster covering the cracks Adelaide s formerly ordinary world becomes fractured after her younger brother Toby has a near fatal opioid overdose and ends up in rehab twice Her world now encompasses hurt and fear, disappointment and mistrust and deep sadness To cope, she puts on a sparkly veneer of pretend happiness while seemingly falling in love with her perfect boyfriend MikeyAdelaide wasn t depressed She never felt bleak She had energy She was talky She painted her fingernails green and wore floral print dresses and enormous cardigan sweaters.But you can be talky and paint your fingernails and still be very sad.In fact, you can be talky and paint your fingernails to protect other people from how sad you areBut as this story starts, the veneer begins to crack The perfect boyfriend Mikey realizes he does not love her, and casually dumps her And now she faces a summer on the empty campus with dog walking as her only distraction Well, and her obsessive attraction to Jack who is handsome and mysterious and who does not remember not only having met her before but also having written her a poem once, years prior Jack, who certainly can make her happy Or maybe it s Mikey who can make her happy Or maybe Jack Or whoever fits that perfect boyfriend moldRomantic obsessional tendency that is not a good quality in a personThis is a story about Adelaide dealing with issues, about learning to find and assert herself, about realizing that you cannot let others deal with the burden of making you who you need to be, of making you happy This is a story about finding clarity to deal with things and accept yourself and make yourself be a person you want to be With the balance of sweet and slightly safely edgy ish, it is nothing earth shattering, really.But the memorable thing about the book, something that outside of the gimmicks broke the mold for me was Adelaide s brother Toby, the recovering addict whose downward spiral had been the turning point of Adelaide s life Toby s story unlike Adelaide s obsessive teenage struggles actually felt like it had resonance and weight Toby, who at fifteen is realizing the weight of the mess his addiction created and needs to figure out how to deal with it and how to be this new person who is always marred by who he used to be And it s sad and heartbreaking, and thoughtfulI AM NOT THE GUY WHO did narcotics and told the lies and took cash from your wallet and wouldn t talk to you and acted terrible in therapy and was just a thunder butt.I mean, I did all that stuff I just don t want to walk around every day saying to myself, I am a complete and utter shit I feel like a reasonably nice human.I would rather say I used to be an addict.But that is NOT what you are supposed to say.You have to say, I am an addict And Mom is scared of the addict.Justifiably scared,Like it might take me over, like a werewolf changing at the full moon.And she can t trust the me that s here because of the addict that s insideSo yeah There were parts that resonated with me, and there were parts where I was really wondering about the point of endless permutations of mundane conversations and events what did they really accomplish here Sweet book, but perhaps not too memorable But managedto put me off reading random versefor a while 3 starsAnd this other guy, he makes you happy It s not his job to make me happy, she told him I am conflicted On the one side, this book is not technically a bad book E Lockhart is a wonderful storyteller The story itself is also told in a fantastically creative way On the other hand, I didn t actually enjoy the book I wasn t satisfied I wasn t as involved as I would have liked I like to get lost in a story, and I simply couldn t do that here.All of that said, I do think this is an extremely interesting novel Especially seeing the repetition of events happening in all the diff I am conflicted On the one side, this book is not technically a bad book E Lockhart is a wonderful storyteller The story itself is also told in a fantastically creative way On the other hand, I didn t actually enjoy the book I wasn t satisfied I wasn t as involved as I would have liked I like to get lost in a story, and I simply couldn t do that here.All of that said, I do think this is an extremely interesting novel Especially seeing the repetition of events happening in all the different possibilities.Despite what the cover implies, this is not so much a romance novel, as it is a book about love Love for yourself, for your family, for all the people that hurt you If anything, the romantic aspect of the story was my least favorite part I much preferred to see the family relations, especially between Adelaide and her brother, Toby I enjoyed the way the book dealt with grief and loss And I liked the fact that the loss is not related to death It is the loss of a person that while they remain physically here, is lost to you in all other ways Seeing how Toby s struggles with addiction and seeing how his family has fallen apart due to it was both interesting and heartbreaking.Overall, I thought the book to be well written and interesting, and yet, almost contradicting myself, I didn t fully enjoy it how I would have liked I sill prefer E Lockhart s We Were Liars I also think this is the kind of book that a lot of people might not enjoy if you aren t familiar with, and interesting in, the author s style of writing Follow Me Here Too My Blog Twitter Bloglovin Instagram Tumblr This book is tough to rate because while I did have some problems with the story, l appreciate how the author was creative in her storytelling There were aspects of the story I really loved, particularly the storyline involving the brother But as a whole, I wouldn t say this was the most satisfying read I do think there are readers who will connectwith the story and character than I did.High school student Adelaide Buchwald is spending her summer as a dog walker And that s pretty much This book is tough to rate because while I did have some problems with the story, l appreciate how the author was creative in her storytelling There were aspects of the story I really loved, particularly the storyline involving the brother But as a whole, I wouldn t say this was the most satisfying read I do think there are readers who will connectwith the story and character than I did.High school student Adelaide Buchwald is spending her summer as a dog walker And that s pretty much all you need to know other than the story explores alternate realities or scenarios or whatever you want to call them Throughout the course of the book a situation plays out but then you get the chance to see if the outcome is different if something else had been said or done differently by Adelaide Sounds confusing Well yeah, it kinda was confusing I ve read a couple other books that went the alternate scenarios route and really enjoyed them but I wasn t impressed with the execution of it in this book The heart of the story for me was everything regarding Adelaide s brother, Toby There was just so much raw honesty that resonated with me It s amazing how I ve seen the same subject explored in many other novels, but yet I walked away from reading this one and felt like the author managed to convey something in a new way I actually would have preferred ifof the book revolved around him instead of so much devoted to Adelaide s love life Other than a few moments here and there, I just wasn t invested in the romance elements of the story This was my first time reading a book by this author and even though this wasn t a perfect read, I can at least recognize she is a talented writer Not all books are going to be an exact fit for every reader and I would much rather read a story that aims high and misses the mark a bit than one that doesn t even attempt to bring something new to the table I received a free advance copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review Thank you NetGalley for an eARC in exchange for an honest reviewOr maybe our encounter was in another possible world That is, in one of the countless other versions of this universe, the worlds running parallel to this one, we are already in love I don t really know how I feel about this book I absolutely loved the author s book We Were Liars, and internally screamed when I was approved for an eARC, but I just don t really know what I read I enjoyed some aspects of this book, but for the m Thank you NetGalley for an eARC in exchange for an honest reviewOr maybe our encounter was in another possible world That is, in one of the countless other versions of this universe, the worlds running parallel to this one, we are already in love I don t really know how I feel about this book I absolutely loved the author s book We Were Liars, and internally screamed when I was approved for an eARC, but I just don t really know what I read I enjoyed some aspects of this book, but for the most part I didn t really like how it was written.We follow Adelaide who is staying on campus for the summer, and is a dog walker of five dogs Her relationship with her boyfriend has just ended abruptly and she is heartbroken Her brother is a recovering addict and she has a lot of emotions about everything, but puts on a happy face and never really brings up those emotions This book explores alternate realties and the, what ifs that we all face in life We see multiple ways a moment in her life is going to go, but then we see how it actually played out.I went into this thinking it was going to be a unique look at love and have some form of alternate reality with it After reading it, I think my least favorite part was the love component I found Adelaide quite annoying with her love life, and she was kind of crazy with all of her boyfriends I would have much rather readabout Toby, her brother and their relationship How the author puts in those gut wrenching moments of what addiction is like made my heart hurt I loved reading the horrible honest truth of addiction I really appreciated how Adelaide dealt with her brother and their relationship meant the most to me in this book.All in all, I still don t really know what the author wanted to convey with readers, and it saddens me that I didn t like this book I just felt that the plot was bizarre, don t get me wrong I love when authors experiment with unique story lines, but this one didn t seem to have a main point I couldn t connect with any of the characters and it just fell flat for me 2.75 out of 5 stars.It had been a hot minute since I read an E Lockhart book, and when I remembered yesterday that Again Again was released I knew I had to read it.The story overall was peculiar and I don t mean this either in negative or in a positive way The writing style was very strange, I didn t quiet understand what was the purpose of the time lapses It didn t make sense to me I know in a way that this was sort of a coming of age book, but I just disn t get the vibe of that Maybe 2.75 out of 5 stars.It had been a hot minute since I read an E Lockhart book, and when I remembered yesterday that Again Again was released I knew I had to read it.The story overall was peculiar and I don t mean this either in negative or in a positive way The writing style was very strange, I didn t quiet understand what was the purpose of the time lapses It didn t make sense to me I know in a way that this was sort of a coming of age book, but I just disn t get the vibe of that Maybe I myself wasn t in the right mood to enjoy or appreciate this book s concept My head is spinning so fast and I m truly seeing the stars I think I start singing Swinging on a star right now Which reminded me the heist scene of Bruce Willis Hudson Hawk movie See I m already thought hungover after reading the book Sometimes if we have second or third chances to do something differently and even though we choose the different paths at the end each path may drag us into the same consequence Maybe we cannot prevent the inevitable, maybe we re just puppets who think My head is spinning so fast and I m truly seeing the stars I think I start singing Swinging on a star right now Which reminded me the heist scene of Bruce Willis Hudson Hawk movie See I m already thought hungover after reading the book Sometimes if we have second or third chances to do something differently and even though we choose the different paths at the end each path may drag us into the same consequence Maybe we cannot prevent the inevitable, maybe we re just puppets who think we can control our own strings which we called them freewill and beat the master to perform our own life plays Again and again is a complex story makes you think what ifs of your life, your regrets, your wishes to redoing something, changing your life What if there are parallel universes and different version of ourselves act different, talk different and show different reactions to the same curveball life throws you Could you be braver, happier, lonelier,determined,devastated,regretful Yes, this book opens up can of worms and make you question everything in your life, confusing the hell of you, frying your brain cells, pushing you out of the comfort zone but eventually it helps you to accept things you cannot change and hidden message is forgiving yourself and approving your choices you made, the actions you took, and the words came out of your mouth This story is so unique, thought provoking, remarkable and exhausting You may give your full concentration because you read alternated versions of the same events between the characters at the same time and sometimes you can ask yourself What , Ha , Wait a minute, come again and you turn back to reread to make sure you understand everything correctly Our heroine Adelaide is sad, heart broken, suffers from egg yolk of misery her definition of depression in her own words She tries to look vivid, happy, strong but she cannot act any she misses her unique relationship with her brother who is an addict and she is so scared he s going to relapse again She wants to take care of him, playing weird vegetable attack games, sharing her secrets and gossiping about parents over protective attitudes She also wants to be loved but her boyfriend ended her 8 month relationship and now she meets with Jack when she s dog walking and she remembers him wrote a poem for her during their first meeting at a party in Boston two years ago She still keeps the poem inside her wallet She starts to think she might be the one So she has so many alternated versions of her own story to prove herself that her guts tell her the truth or she cannot be so wrong Overall this is quiet fascinating story about the loss not as a grief but connection loss with the loved ones you shared important parts of your life , siblings, addiction, family, love, future plans, regrets, choices I loved Adelaide s profession choice and the ideas she brought out when she was designing theater set of Fool for Love That design was also the reflection of her family s skeletons in the closet and unhealthy relationship patterns she has It might look like sad, depressing, mind bending story but when you finish it, you realize you read something surprisingly promising, hopeful and refreshing and you start smiling, taking a deep breath and keep on thinking your other version of yourself and what would you do if youchances to do over things Yes, I loved this promising premise I enjoyed Adelaide s story and I loved the book s approach to help me get a closer look to my own life Full, well deserved, complex but also entertaining stars Special thanks to NetGalley and Random House Children s Delacorte Press fro sharing this unique ARC with me in exchange my honest review Well, this was lovely, bittersweet and melancholy And welcome back, E Lockhart I was afraid you d succumbed fully to the mystery genre, to writing of the stories I don t enjoy.I wouldn t call Again Again a complete return to the lighter chick lit type stuff of her early writing career But this is monumentally better than the unfortunate Genuine Fraud Again Again is a story about accepting the pain and joys of loving people The cover might give one an impression that this is a romance, whic Well, this was lovely, bittersweet and melancholy And welcome back, E Lockhart I was afraid you d succumbed fully to the mystery genre, to writing of the stories I don t enjoy.I wouldn t call Again Again a complete return to the lighter chick lit type stuff of her early writing career But this is monumentally better than the unfortunate Genuine Fraud Again Again is a story about accepting the pain and joys of loving people The cover might give one an impression that this is a romance, which it is, somewhat, however the focus of Again Again is on allowing yourself to love, even with the knowledge that this love romantic, sibling can and will bring you heartache I know I am being unclear and rambly You just need to explore this for yourself Lockhart achieved quite a lot of depth in this work, even though the novel is set in a pretty standard YA landscape of school, family and romantic woes And her characters, unfailingly, are great conversationalists, if you don t mind the uppity, a bit too precocious tone of her works.There is also an interesting gimmick of the same events playing out in different parallel worlds inserted here For a lot of this novel I thought it had only entertainment value, but the last part of the book pulled it all together All in all, a delightful reading experience, made evenso by my simultaneous binge of DEVS multiverseftw