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[[ Read Pdf ]] ⚫ You Exist Too Much ⚣ A Provocative And Seductive Debut Of Desire And Doubleness That Follows The Life Of A Young Palestinian American Woman Caught Between Cultural, Religious, And Sexual Identities As She Endeavors To Lead An Authentic Life O, The Oprah Magazine On A Hot Day In Bethlehem, A Year Old Palestinian American Girl Is Yelled At By A Group Of Men Outside The Church Of The Nativity She Has Exposed Her Legs In A Biblical City, An Act They Deem Forbidden, And Their Judgement Will Echo On Through Her Adolescence When Our Narrator Finally Admits To Her Mother That She Is Queer, Her Mother S Response Only Intensifies A Sense Of Shame You Exist Too Much, She Tells Her DaughterTold In Vignettes That Flash Between The US And The Middle East From New York To Jordan, Lebanon, And Palestine Zaina Arafat S Debut Novel Traces Her Protagonist S Progress From Blushing Teen To Sought After DJ And Aspiring Writer In Brooklyn, She Moves Into An Apartment With Her First Serious Girlfriend And Tries To Content Herself With Their Comfortable Relationship But Soon Her Longings, So Closely Hidden During Her Teenage Years, Explode Out Into Reckless Romantic Encounters And Obsessions With Other People Her Desire To Thwart Her Own Destructive Impulses Will Eventually Lead Her To The Ledge, An Unconventional Treatment Center That Identifies Her Affliction As Love Addiction In This Strange, Enclosed Society She Will Start To Consider The Unnerving Similarities Between Her Own Internal Traumas And Divisions And Those Of The Places That Have Formed HerOpening Up The Fantasies And Desires Of One Young Woman Caught Between Cultural, Religious, And Sexual Identities, You Exist Too Much Is A Captivating Story Charting Two Of Our Most Intense Longings For Love, And A Place To Call Home YOU EXIST TOO MUCH is a novel following an unnamed narrator back and forth through time, across the United States and the Middle East Our narrator is a Palestinian American queer woman grappling with a love addiction, a complex relationship with her mother, and countless destructive relationships The novel follows her as she goes into treatment for love addiction I can see her being an unlikeable character for sure, but I was helplessly rooting for her to face her demons, set boundaries wit YOU EXIST TOO MUCH is a novel following an unnamed narrator back and forth through time, across the United States and the Middle East Our narrator is a Palestinian American queer woman grappling with a love addiction, a complex relationship with her mother, and countless destructive relationships The novel follows her as she goes into treatment for love addiction I can see her being an unlikeable character for sure, but I was helplessly rooting for her to face her demons, set boundaries with her mother, and develop a healthy relationship to intimacy.I really enjoyed this book It was readable, engaging, and easy to get lost in something I needed Queer literature so often explores topics of shame around sexuality the desire for family acceptance, but I rarely get tired of reading them and this brought a fresh perspective since I haven t read a lot of queer Arab literature.I read a negative review on Goodreads that critiqued this book for its portrayal of bisexuality There are SO many harmful tropes about bisexuals as devious, promiscuous cheaters, etc, and the main character certainly is unfaithful struggles w commitment However I felt like the novel wasn t falling into a trope bc the author fully fleshed out the depth behind our protagonist s flawed relationship with her mother, how that showed up in her intimate relationships, and her desire to correct that I m open to other perspective on this there s a lot to unpack in this book.Thank you to the publisher for the free book in exchange for an honest review I genuinely enjoyed this recommend preordering it before it comes out in June Hypnotically meandering narrative structure Deeply compelling protagonist Lovely sentences Sexy, in it s own way. The background of the novel is a woman born to Palestinian parents, who were forced to relocate in 1967 They have family in Lebanon, West Bank, and Jordan, but live in America Her parents had a volatile relationship and her mother has often treated her like competition or an inconvenience, telling her You exist too much when she responds emotionally, especially when she starts trying to come out to her The refusal to understand her daughter as anything but straight is one backbone to the no The background of the novel is a woman born to Palestinian parents, who were forced to relocate in 1967 They have family in Lebanon, West Bank, and Jordan, but live in America Her parents had a volatile relationship and her mother has often treated her like competition or an inconvenience, telling her You exist too much when she responds emotionally, especially when she starts trying to come out to her The refusal to understand her daughter as anything but straight is one backbone to the novel.But this is not a family saga It slike a recovery novel At the start of the novel, a relationship between the MC and her girlfriend Anna has just ended and it s definitely her fault She s been sleeping with randos at the bar where she DJs and carrying on with a married professor while claiming to be monogamous she decides to check in to a facility for addictionlove addiction I was a bit surprised at this as the majority of the story, because the very first scene of the novel, where she gets in trouble for exposing her ankles in Bethlehem, made me think it would be a different type of story.I wasinterested in the parts about her mother, honestly, what her life started as and what happened in the war, the distributed nature of her family, the strangeness of her parents marriage and how violence was the only form of attention the author was making the connection between that upbringing and the MC s behavior but I think the piece that was missing is that I m not sure the MC ever does This makes it feel like the novel is a snapshot of the story but not the entire story, and I think that s okay, but somehow not as satisfying as I would have liked.ETA Okay, so I literally just wrote this review a couple of hours ago, by my thumbs in Instagram this morning after sleeping on finishing the book last night Since then I have watched one 15 minute video that is part of Resmaa Menakem s free eCourse on Racialized Trauma and if you add that context and understanding to this novel woah The MC s tendency to make everything about her, to become hypersensitive and volatile, emotional, to exist too much what if that is her only option of response to the racialized trauma her family has experienced in the last few generations and of course before that but very centrally on her parents and grandparents in particular I don t know if Arafat intended this connection but it is an interesting one to think about I had a copy of this book from the publisher through Edelweiss, and it came out June 9, 2020. Before being sent an arc for this book i remember coming across it and being excited for the lgbt pali representation Not even halfway through and this book manages to strike every single way to disrespect sexuality and mental illness, brimming with stereotypes and unrealistic representations This is extremely harmful towards bisexuals specifically, making them labeled as love addicts going around falling in love with every person they meet and getting obsessed with them, jumping from a Before being sent an arc for this book i remember coming across it and being excited for the lgbt pali representation Not even halfway through and this book manages to strike every single way to disrespect sexuality and mental illness, brimming with stereotypes and unrealistic representations This is extremely harmful towards bisexuals specifically, making them labeled as love addicts going around falling in love with every person they meet and getting obsessed with them, jumping from a person to another Adding to the fact the main character was the most annoying thing i read about since clary fairchild from tmi, and the obnoxious writing like what does she gives golden retriever warmth supposed to be this book would be impossible to finish Authors, please understand the next time you write about a bi character that Bisexuals are not cheaters.Bisexuals are not love addicts or sex addicts.Shitty people are cheaters Sex addiction is a condition to be handled not part of your sexual orientation